it's training men.
toast.
been training for three days...
been meeting new people...
been learning so many things...
been drinking 3 cups of coffee/day...
been eating 3 burgers w/in 24 hrs...
been waiting for my new laptop...
been growing calluses on my feet...
i miss my slippers....
i miss my bed...
i miss my pc...
i miss my long sleep...
i miss my family...
i miss my boyfriend...
first day funk
june 29, 2007
my first day at work turned out the way i expected it to: i just submitted all the requirements, had my id pic taken and had nothing else to do for the most part of the day. well, of course, my boss introduced me to her boss and to my new colleagues. it was a young group of people, mostly in their early 20's, majority were women. they were all nice and accommodating. i had a chance to get to know some of them better during the team lunch (this happens quarterly, the company reserves a budget for it). they had an effort to get to know me, they asked me personal questions that i had no qualms answering. it's been great, i've always been excited about meeting new people, making new friends. :)
i'm entitled to my own workstation, my own cubicle, i must add. i temporarily used the desktop pc though (as my boss still had to follow up my laptop) to surf the net and chat with eder and hazel. hehe. i also got my office supplies (which includes a bottle of ethyl alcohol). unfortunately, the keys to my locker are nowhere to be found yet so i had to do with leaving my brand new supplies on top of my desk. now, i'm still praying that nobody tries to take even a piece of pen. hehe. worry wart.
anyway, my favorite part of the day was when my boss, our boss and i attended a meeting with the asia pacific head for bcp. being the new girl in the office, i initially thought that this foreigner boss was actually in the building. later did i know that we were actually attending a phone meeting cos he's based in australia. we only conversed with him via speaker phone. i had a hard time deciphering his english (w/ his accent) so i literally had to stick my ear near the speaker.
but it's been all good. i have yet to attend the actual training and orientation this coming week but i already learned a few from the meeting itself and being around my co-workers. yet, of course, i'm looking forward to learning more about the challenge of this new responsibility. as allan and i discussed last night, we're both happy that everything seems to be falling into place now, with him getting a better job and with me finally being a productive member of society. we're being optimistic yet never sure. we should always be ready for unexpected events.
i have been teaching myself to live in the present but worries and hang-ups are sometimes inevitable. with that in hand, i'm hoping this job helps me overcome my insecurities so i can set my goals and one day be able to achieve each and one of them.
make you work, make you work, work.
yesterday i dropped by 1800 building to get to know the details of my employment, what requirements i need to submit, what benefits i'm getting and to sign
the contract. as you've probably read in my latest post, i'm obviously very eager to get this job opportunity but i tried so hard to conceal it in front of the hr person and my soon-to-be immediate supervisor. hence, they still made an effort to convince me to accept their offer. of course, i gleefully signed the contract, having read the terms and having been overwhelmed by the impressive benefits (which includes a laptop). well, they didn't have to do a lot of convincing because i was already blown away by the fact that i got picked out of a many hopefuls. (i still can't get over that even up to now) =)
anyway, they made me take home almost an inch thick pre-employment requirements i need to fill up and sign. i started accomplishing it last night but i guess i won't be done with til this friday. if not, my salary would have to be delayed til next month. boo.
my first work day is on friday. i must admit i'm a little jittery right now, still a bit apprehensive. i really don't know what to expect... from the job itself or from the bosses. but i'm looking forward to meeting new people and learning.. (to be more responsible, that is).
jobhunter extraordinaire no more.
today, today, today! june 25, 2007 at 830am. i received the phone call i have been waiting for so long! finally, a job offer i actually accepted. a job i prayed hard for every night. i was close to praying to every saint i could think of and calling all the dead members of the family. just when i was about to lose hope, i got this call!
i literally burst into tears after i put the phone down. i was filled with emotions i didn't know i could ever feel again. i was screaming at 850am, jumping up and down, announcing to my mom, my kuya, etc that i got the job! that i got picked out of a number of hopeful applicants! i now have a re-established belief in myself, i'm back to my competitive mode.
i do want this job and i know i deserve it. there's no way i can let myself go back to being the stubborn and lazy ass 21 year old that i was. i promised myself to plan my life goals once i get the job i like. it's much like starting over, like i was just out of college once again.
i know failures and heartaches are inevitable but i'm willing to take the risk. i just hope and pray that everything falls into place now that i have this new responsibility. it's a new step, a new beginning. i'm digging a grave for my cynicism cos there's no place for that in my life right now. everyday, i'll always think of a reason to smile and be happy. =) as bob marley's song positive vibrations goes.....
Cause its a new day
New time, new feeling yeah!
Say it's a new sign
Oh what a new day
Picking up.
Are you picking up now
Jah love, Jah love, protect us
even if i despise isaiah washington
his chartacter as dr. preston burke/cristina's boyfriend in grey's anatomy is worth remembering.
too bad the wedding didn't push through. it could have been my favorite scene because of the heartmelting vows he practiced with addison (kate walsh) and the rest.
"Christina, I could promise, to hold you, and to cherish you.
I could promise, to be there in sickness and in health.
I could say, til death do us part.
But I won't.
Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope.
And I do not stand here, on my wedding day, optimistic, or full of hope.
I am not optimistic, I am not hopeful.
I am sure.
I am steady.
And I know...
I'm a heart-man.
Take them apart, put them back together.
I hold them in my hands.
I am a heart man.
So this i am sure.
You are my partner, my lover, my very best friend.
My heart, my heart, beats for you.
and on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this:
I promise you, to lay my heart in the palm of your hands
I promise you, me. "
